How better can I define happiness ?

My CPT results are out and surprisingly i cleared it. What surprises me the most is that I got the same marks that I guessed.
 Even though I have little regret for not scoring 150, I am feeling little overwhelmed for scoring 24 in maths(that it is what i attempted).

Clearing this means a great deal to me. reasons:
1. I have attended two batches of coaching.
2. This year the pass percentage is around 27 % and getting through is something really great. (in my perception)
3. I had suffered the torments of the hot sun (this whole summer)


I am feeling great about myself and I can brag about myself continuously for the whole day. But the real challenge lies ahead. In IPCC. It would surely reflect my knowledge. All I have learnt is that I need to work more and consistently.

I am feeling a little bad for my friend who couldn't get through. Commenting now would definitely hurt them. I feel really bad for those who have not applied for college. How bad !!

Right now, I am feeling a bit uncomfortable.. kind of restless.. Because I am scared that I my professors at the coaching institute would never recognize my marks.
But I am sure that I can prove them again in IPCC.

I picked these...

I know this is one of the well celebrated books, so I picked it. I tried borrowing it from the library but couldnt get a copy. So I decided to buy one myself. I had to resist reading it as I had the entrance. Once I wrote the entrance, I picked it and read it the way I read Harry Potter. After a long time i have laid hands on a love story.

Book Review :- ****(these are stars)

What I liked about the book :- The idea of letters was the best of all. Even though the story is all about brooding, I didnt want to skip any line. I almost cried reading the forty seventh chapter. What could be more touching ?

"As soon as Gerry knew he was safe, he pulled back the covers and slowly climbed out of bed. 

He sat on the edge of the mattress for a while, waiting for the dizziness to pass, then he slowly 

made his way to the wardrobe. He took out an old shoe box from the top shelf that contained 

junk he had collected over the past few years and that also contained the nine full envelopes. He 

took out the tenth empty envelope and neatly wrote “December” on the front. Today was the 

first of December, and he moved himself forward one year from now, knowing he wouldn't be 

around. He imagined Holly to be a karaoke genius, relaxed from her holiday in Spain, bruise-free as a result of the bedside lamp and hopefully happy in a new job that she loved. 

He imagined her on this very day in one year's time possibly sitting on the bed right where he 

was now and reading the final installment to the list, and he thought long and hard about what 

to write. Tears filled his eyes as he placed the full stop beside the sentence; he kissed the page, 

wrapped it in the envelope and hid it back in the shoe box."

Every word of this chapter is etched in a lovely way.
I read this over and again until I understood and felt every word of it.

The last letter.... What could Gerry think better than this? What could anybody think better than this ?

"Don't be afraid to fall in love again".

What I felt about the author :- Simple language. Lovely description of Holly's grief. I wonder how could someone explain so much ?

Suggestions :- Girls will enjoy reading more. 

I picked these...

I happened to visit the British Library recently. I was surprised to find to see lot of books there. Since i could not recognise many of the authors, I randomly picked two books. One of them is this book.

Book review:-
Rating :- ****(these are stars)
What I felt about the book :- It is a simple book, with no identified plot. It describes few episodes of a bus drivers bus driving expedition and how the network in which he is employed functions.  Slow and lovely. I could cherish it more because I could relate it with my personal experiences of travelling in buses.

What i liked about the author:- Even though he is a not an impressive storyteller, he keeps continues the story with the same pace. Easy language, small and unique theme were the things that I liked the most.

Suggestions :- Worth reading over tea time, or on a leisure jobless day or on journeys.  

History: A new awakening..

History is one of the lovely subjects. Because it helps us to celebrate the past, reason the present and plan the future. I remember Bhavani ma'am teaching me this - "History = His+story. Whose story ? The early man's story".
It is a wonderful subject but rarely acknowledged.

I have recently developed a yearning to study history.

My wishlist:
1. Complete Indian history. 

2. Great world scams

3. World wars
4. Maruthanayakan (obviously)

5. Sadam's history

i know that these require great patience and a broad view to appreciate. 

But how will this help me? 

It would help to understand what has shaped our present and how it will affect the future. When i turn 18. it will help me vote.

I have a pipe dream of entering politics. Maybe it would help me then. I wanted to become a social studies teacher and teaching history would be much more interesting.

Anyways, to be honest it is out of curiosity that i want to learn history.